How I am Feeling Right NOW

I have really been tested this past week on how I handle things. As everyone knows Kane is laid off and has been since November. Well, we had hopes that things were working out. Long story short, he takes the test for Conroe Police Department, finds out he is 11 out of over 200 on the hiring list. Well, we find out from someone else, who found out from someone else that they are only hiring 5. Of course I get discouraged, I go through all the motions of losing faith in everything we have done and thinking we made the worst decision in our life. I then have to overcome a family situation. I personally have had the worst three years of my life. I went through alot of ups and downs, more downs then ups. I almost lost the best thing that has ever happened to me...my husband. I have a good friend, Beth, that told me we needed to go back to church. I am so glad she did. I have been able to work on my relationship with my friends, my husband, my family, and most of all with him. But...this past week has really tested my faith in HIM!!! I do not want to GIVE UP, I do not want to LOSE FAITH, I do not want to think he would have given us this choice if it was NOT the RIGHT one!! I have heard this song at least five times since Tuesday. It has helped me to remember even though there are things that are DRIVING ME CRAZY RIGHT NOW because I can not control it, he does know exactly what he is doing and I have to have FAITH that things will work out. One way or another, everything will work out!!!